the fear of restructuring truth

late night channeling/conversation with my ancestors

Having recent conversations centered around restructuring truth has led me to face the realities of my fears. Restructuring theory and truth are necessary for liberation and working through present issues but they create a reality where you have to face the possibility of harm. Living in my body, my ancestors and I know that when power is challenged, it will seek out your annihilation as retribution. This is a lived reality but it is not a reason to stop living (even when your existence actively challenges dominant power structures).

In my most recent therapy session, my therapists offered the idea that danger is present and may even come for me but that my community is not just my “safe space” but people who want to take an active role in my protection. Calling on my people conjures protection. Telling my fears calls in loved ones who want to guard my mind and help mend my heart. Who are you surrounded by? How do you allow them to take an active role in your protection? How do YOU take an active role in other’s protection? As ancestor Gwendolyn Brooks reminds us, “We are each other’s harvest, we are each other’s business, we are each other’s magnitude and bond.”

If living in a way opposite to how colonial supremacy requires causes fear, know you aren’t alone. The danger is real AND there are people ready and willing to step in on your behalf in small and large ways. We owe each other a lot so lean in and let in. I hope this whispered vulnerability creates space for you to pause. Know that fear may be present but it does not have to be a barrier. You are my harvest, you are my business, you are my magnitude and bond.

With love,

Jupiter